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spiritingaway2022-02-05 11:25 pm
fledges) wrote in spiritingaway2022-02-05 11:25 pm
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[Going home isn't actually all it's cracked up to be.
In every obvious way, it's good to be back. Kate has all of her emotional reunions, hugs Clint for too long and pretends she doesn't notice him trying to hide the tears in his eyes, drinks so much coffee it makes her sick, and tries to catch up with everything she missed. Even if the whole thing was chaotic and too quick in the end, she tells herself it was what everyone wanted. Even if thinking about Jason and the others makes her feel like she's missing a limb, they're home. No chips in their heads, no Big Brother surveillance, no more cyberpunk nightmare. That's better.
Except for Damian.
She can't stop thinking about him. Every second of every day, even when she tells herself to get it together, Bishop, she can't get him out of her head. Nothing could be worse for Damian than going home, and if there's anything she hates herself for, it's the fact that she didn't make damn sure he came home with her. In the end, the dominos fell too fast, but she should have done something, anything. It doesn't matter to Kate that she has no idea what that "something" could have possibly been—it tears at her regardless.
The upside to having a friend who can jump through the multiverse is that she can fix it, she thinks. The downside is that she knows only so much about Damian's world—he was so tightlipped. It's dangerous, and his position is precarious there, and as much as that just makes Kate want to rush it even more, if he ended up hurt or worse because of her again...
She has to do it right. And even if he decides he wants to stay in Jason's world and she never sees him again, as long as she knows he's safe, it's fine, she thinks. (Maybe much less fine than she'll ever let herself admit.)
It turns out her rescue plans don't work out after all.]
In every obvious way, it's good to be back. Kate has all of her emotional reunions, hugs Clint for too long and pretends she doesn't notice him trying to hide the tears in his eyes, drinks so much coffee it makes her sick, and tries to catch up with everything she missed. Even if the whole thing was chaotic and too quick in the end, she tells herself it was what everyone wanted. Even if thinking about Jason and the others makes her feel like she's missing a limb, they're home. No chips in their heads, no Big Brother surveillance, no more cyberpunk nightmare. That's better.
Except for Damian.
She can't stop thinking about him. Every second of every day, even when she tells herself to get it together, Bishop, she can't get him out of her head. Nothing could be worse for Damian than going home, and if there's anything she hates herself for, it's the fact that she didn't make damn sure he came home with her. In the end, the dominos fell too fast, but she should have done something, anything. It doesn't matter to Kate that she has no idea what that "something" could have possibly been—it tears at her regardless.
The upside to having a friend who can jump through the multiverse is that she can fix it, she thinks. The downside is that she knows only so much about Damian's world—he was so tightlipped. It's dangerous, and his position is precarious there, and as much as that just makes Kate want to rush it even more, if he ended up hurt or worse because of her again...
She has to do it right. And even if he decides he wants to stay in Jason's world and she never sees him again, as long as she knows he's safe, it's fine, she thinks. (Maybe much less fine than she'll ever let herself admit.)
It turns out her rescue plans don't work out after all.]